Evening came, a friend of mine celebrated her birthday with us last night... There were 5 of us altogether... He was there too... I guess the birthday girl was really happy... I could see 'Happiness' written all over her face... We ate at the newly renovated East Coast Lagoon Hawker Centre... I very nice place with very nice atmosphere... After that, we watched 'Something's Gotta Give'... It was really a very funny show... Its like in life we should always cherish the opportunity that comes by, but than again, if it's meant to be, it's meant to be...
I like the way he was last night... Where everybody won't feel awkward, that we still could have fun and feel happy together... I hope he stays this way...
~!Life Goes On!~
Friday, February 27, 2004
Had some moments of fun this evening... Was with p6 at Bedok 85 market... They really do light up my life... Thanx...
~!Life Goes On!~
Thursday, February 26, 2004
Only when words and actions can no longer affect my emotions, then will i be said to have rest my mind of all these...
~!Life Goes On!~
Wednesday, February 25, 2004
Life is the process of finding love; every person will need to find four people in their life.
First person is you,
Second person is the one you love most,
Third person is the one who love you most,
And the fourth is the one you spend the rest of your life with.
In life, firstly you will meet with the one you love most, and learn how love feels.
Because you know how love feels, so you can find the person who loves you most.
When you have experienced the feeling of loving others and being loved, you will then know what it is you need most.
Then you will find the person who is most suitable for you, to be able to spend the rest of your life with.
Sadly, in real life, these three people are usually not the same person.
The one you love most doesn’t love you.
The one, who love you most, is never the one you love most.
And the one you spend your life with, is never the one you love most or the one who love you most.
He is just the person who happens to be at the right place at the right time.
Which person are you in other people’s life?
No person will purposely have a change of heart.
At the point in time when he loves you, he really loves you.
But when he doesn’t love you anymore, he really doesn’t love you anymore.
When he loves you, he can’t pretend that he doesn’t.
Same goes, when he loves you no more, there’s no way he can pretend he loves you.
When a person doesn’t love you and wants to leave you.
You must ask yourself if you still love him,
If you also don’t love him anymore, do not keep him just to save your pride.
If you still love him, you should wish him happiness, and hope that he will be with the one he loves most, not stop him from it.
If you stop him from finding true happiness with the one he loves, it shows you already don’t love him,
And if you don’t love him, what rights do you have to blame him for a change of heart?
Love is not possessive,
If you like the moon, you can’t just take it down and put it in your basin,
But the moonlight still shines upon you.
In other words, when you love a person, you can use another method of possessing the person.
Let him become a permanent memory in you life.
If you really love a person, you must love him for what he is.
Love him for his good points, and the bad,
You can’t wish for him to become like what you like him to be just because you love him.
If he can’t change to become what you like him to be, you don’t love him anymore.
When you really love a person, you cannot find a reason why you love him,
You only know that no matter when and where, good mood or bad mood, you will wish to have this person be with you.
Real love is when two people can go through the toughest problems without asking for promises or listing criteria.
In a relationship, you have to put in effort and give in at times, not always be on the receiving end.
Being away from each other is a type of test,
If the relationship isn’t strong, then you can only admit defeat.
Real love will never become hate.
When two people are in love,
They love to ask each other to swear, to make promises.
Why do they ask each other to swear and promise?
Because they don’t trust each other, they don’t trust their lover.
These swear and promises are useless;
Till the sky falls, till the ocean dry, my love for you will never change!
We all know that the sky will never fall; the ocean will never dry,
Even if it does happen, are we still alive by then?
Be careful when making promises; don’t make promises that you cannot keep.
Swear by things that can never happen, because it can never happen, so no harm just saying it casually.
Remember? Swearing by things that can never happen are the most touching!!?
In a relationship, what you say is one thing, but what you do is another;
The one saying, doesn’t believe; the one listening, also doesn’t believe.
Which person have you found so far?
In the world so big, which person have you found?
And who has found you?
Very true indeed...
People please feel free to give your comments...
~!Life Goes On!~
Tuesday, February 24, 2004
Tried to do things as usual today... I couldn't help but feel sad when i saw him... Hate the way he looked at me, guilty and sorry... I try to behave the way i was as usual so that both of us wouldn't feel that awkward... I still have to see him for the next 2 months plus...
It's not that easy putting everything down at once... Besides, i did really love him once... Deeply... He asked for forgiveness and said that he was sorry again today... Just like the many times he did before... I don't hate them, just hated myself for being so nice to them... I'm being nice to them cause i feel it's the right thing to do... The greatest revenge, is forgiveness... And i'm going to do just that...
If you do not have a vision for the future, then your future is likely to be threatened by the repeat of your past... Did i get it right this time? Got this somewhere... Very meaningful...
~!Life Goes On!~
Monday, February 23, 2004
~!Life Goes On!~
Sunday, February 22, 2004
He told me everything, about him and the girl in his class... He said he didn't want to hide it from me anymore... And as he spoke, i could see guilt all over his face... He had feelings for her, she had for him too...and i seem to be the last person in the world to know, again...
T: "Do you feel insecure with me?"
C: "I would be lying if i said no..."
T: "That's true..."
T: "Will you forgive me if i break up with u?"
C: "ya..." (It didn't seem to me that i have much choice... I would never have given up on all we already had only cause he said it...)
T: "We will still be friends right? Good ones? Death do us part..."
C: "ya... don't be so girlish...!" (Trying hard to hide how i really felt...)
I loved him alot... Cherished every single moments we had together... But it still all comes to this...
This is the don't know how many times we broke up... But it seems that i'm not as sad as before... Seem to have expected all this would come the day i saw the girl's messages in his phone... I took it easy then for i felt if something were to happen, it would happen no matter what... I felt i did my part cause i often asked him if there was anything he was hiding from me or if there was anything he wanted to tell me... He told me nothing... I seem so much prepared when he initiated the break up... I love him but i'm disappointed too...
What else can i do? He chose this himself... He was really close to her i guess, shared lots of problems with each other together i guess... I can only guess... She seem to need someone by her side all the time to comfort her... She's a girl, it's normal for a girl to need someone to comfort her when she's down right...? She even tried threatening to take her own life... I'm so different from her... I never liked using tears to get a guy to comfort me or even taking my own life... I don't even know if i should be angry with her... But i don't want to... Things have already happened... I never liked blaming anybody... All that has happened has happened, it doesn't really matter to me anymore...
All i can do was to message her:
"I hope u dun lead T halfway.. Dun let my sacrifice be a waste.. All i wan is for him to be happy.. Life might not be as meaningless as u think it is... Cherish everything u have cuz everything is precious...!~"
She tried saying she was sorry that she didn't mean to get between us and that i should not give up easily...
"Wats done has been done... N i believe everything happens for a reason... Juz like u said, tiz feelings develop naturally... We dunno y but it juz does... U dun have to beg me or anything... If tiz relationship was strong... It will have survived e sway in feelings... Its juz too bad it did not... He must have seen something in u tt i dun have... U shd feel honoured..."
Coming to think about it, i might be the only person who may walk out of all these with e least casualties... At least, i know my conscience is clear compared to them for i think i did what i had to do already... The only thing is that maybe i should reflect on myself why all this actually happened... Maybe i lack something to be that good girlfriend in his eyes...
I know people may say that i'm only comforting myself when i see things this way... But life still goes on... I dun wan to let the people who love and care for me feel sad... I wan to cherish everything i've still got, my family, my friends and my brother who has been there to listen to me all this time...
~!Life Goes On!~
